Nine different rounds... Nine different thoughts..

The example i take here to illuminate could be bad... but i hope the point i am trying to make reaches you...

i went to the temple in mylapore to find some peace... as i entered i jus found some beggars asking for money... as i did not have any change... i jus went inside... then later after circumventing the main temple.. i came near navagraha sannadhi to make 9 rounds.When i covered 50% of my 1st round... there was an old lady in torn clothes.. sitting in the corner and begging for some money... i thought "y do these people come inside the temple and beg for money..." as i met her for the 2nd time.. she was begging once again... i thot..."y do people who run these temples are not taking care of these things..." in the 3rd round i found she was begging again... i thot "we should never encourage people like this as i could be helping them to become lazy and this could harm both herself and the society(this is one reason many of us assume ...as to y we should not encourage such acts")... on the 4th round she begged again... i now thot "i have found a reason y i should not encourage her.. but will i be doing something else for her or people like her for them to stop begging or am i just finding reasons for not spending money.. " came the 5th round.. it is then i realised i have to face her 4 more times and she will beg again and again.. somehow i happened to notice she was slightly handicapped... and i thot "wat else she could do... after being born under such conditions and circumstances... even after being born in a good family with all the love and affection i receive,i too have been bad at times... wat if i had been born like her... may b i would have been worser than her... who knows...? this time as i crossed her i jus smiled at her... but she has no idea of wat i am thinking... she was still begging(6th round).... then i searched for change... i realised i have only ten rupee notes.. so i thought "now i cannot help myself... its no more my mistake and i cannot help and i dont have to feel gulity for not helping her... she then begged again... then i heard one voice inside... i seriously dont know where these voices come from... if i dont answer them it makes me damn gulity and it jus asked me .. y dont u give 10 rupees...? wat do u gain by saving these 10 rupess.. don't be penny wise and pound foolish... all those previous assumptions and phillosphies started flowing... i know i cannot fight with that voice... i thought i will give at the end of my rounds... on 7th round when she begged i told her in action that i will give it at the end of all the rounds... after seven rounds i was now able to walk peacefully without questions... now i thought i should learn from her about the power of persuasion... i can learn how to position yourself or a brand in a strategic location in the midst of competitive market... how did she choose this positions ... if she would have been any corporate... she would work smart rather than hard... she made me walk towards her nine different times with nine different thoughts transforming my views and all the while she did not even move... in the end i gave a 10 rupee without any regret.... i went to find peace... would not have found that... if she had not been there... may be thats why she is there... giving peace to me... who knows...? god knows. as i came out i saw some more beggars... then all these questions started flowing... "i should have got some change and distributed to everyone... will all these money go to them or is there a gang behind... wat can we do about all these people...? " in another few seconds i will be loaded with 1000 more questions.... i started to move with these questions... suppressing them temporarily but will reccur somewhere else in some other time....
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